Trusting God and Others
I am right back here after Thursday...nothing went as planned...the night took a total turn ..did you ever have a night like that..?...blind-sighted(or is it blindsided..?)...how is it that God wants me to trust someone so much with my very being..?...not just trusting Him....but trusting someone else....
One of the books the counselor gave me to read, I think I told you the title..part of which is hard for me..but the title is "Secret Survivors"..if you dont know the book...it deals with the type of abuse relating to my past.., anyway..in part of one of the chapters it talks about some of the emotional effects left behind as a consequence. The book quotes "Children should be able to expect to be loved. Period. They are entitled to be loved without having everything taken from them-without having anything taken from them. They deserve to learn that it is safe to be dependent. And they should experience having their needs met without tradeoffs or paybacks.".. yesterday when I read in the Grace chapter .." Humility requires trust. Humility believes that what God and others have to to teach me is worthy of my dependent trust.." honestly..I had trouble with this..I am realizing that I have a definite problem with trust..hard to admit..but I do.... then this morning I read in the next chapter in TrueFaced.. Ch 7..I had not read that chapter until this morning...it talks about Love...Love being the first gift of grace.. and the tag saying " Take it , apply it, and trust me to make it real."
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Dear Secret Survivor:
Sounds like truth to me! Just because you are going to trust someone else, doesn’t mean you are not going to get hurt. In fact, with the hurt, God will lead us into a deeper love. In turn, we will begin to love others so that others can trust us. Twisted? Yes…and very beautiful. Our betrayal makes us more trustworthy and loving, so that others can find a safe haven with us.
Mark
