Wounded Heart
The idea of repentance is to turn around and find another way".....
from The Wounded Heart... ..."...The process of entering the past will disrupt life, or at least, the existence that masquerades as life. The ease of quiet denial that allows a person to be a pleasant but vacuous doormat.... will be replaced by tumult, fear, confusion, anger, and change. Marriages will need to be reshaped;......The fabric of life will need to be unraveled piece by piece as the Master reweaves the cloth to His design. The process would be difficult even in an ideal world with supportive partners, family....
"The person who desires to deal with the wounds of past abuse will not feel courageous, nor will there be the immediate exaltation of starting out on a new journey; the bonds of the soul will not be quickly broken"
All of the other things you said about how abuse affects our dignity, our roles and how it all ties into the person that we have become, knowingly or not...oh my....this is the other issue..(are you sure you weren't in [my home state] Thursday..or listening to my conversation with my counselor Friday night ?)....owning the responsibility of the mess I have made within my family because of my sins...when I was protecting myself, however not knowingly...you are right..it is twisted...
Chapter 10 "The Wounded Heart "..." Change is always a process. This truth cannot be over-. emphasized. Many abuse victims feel their progress of change is taking too long. The assumption is that if God is involved, then the process will be brief and not too messy. If that were true, why did God take forty years to teach Moses humility and leadership skills in the sheep fields of Midian? Deep healing , supernatural change, may take years of struggle, trial-and-error learning and growing in strength to make the next significant move of faith."...." The process involves the surprising route of weakness, brokenness, poverty and death"... I don't know about you but none of this seems encouraging...does it sound like a place anyone would want to be or go..?..so now...my next hurdle...just admitting that there are hurts to my soul from this...(and there are alot)...and now one by painful one...we pick them up, change and apply...oh boy...
