Emotions, Anxiety and Repentance...
I want to share with you what I just learned...I believe it helps me to define the "emotions" and anxiety I have not been able to define since Thursday.."Repentance" Ch 12..." In the beginning, honestly facing the characteristic lies and denial associated with sexual abuse usually intensifies the experience of victimization. For the first time, memories return that rip apart the pretense of a happy childhood or a loving family. Not only is the perpetrator faced as wicked, but other family members are seen as aiding in the abuser by their complicity....Often the abuse victim realzes that the same patterns that allowed the abuse to occur and go unaddressed are equally operative in her life today. Vicitmization is usually not only an event in the past; in most cases, it is an ongoing, day-by-day experience.
The return of horrific memories, the exposure of past and current betrayal, and acknowledgement of internal damage, the recongnition of current self-protective, destructive patterns- all are nearly overwhelming."..... I believe that this is what I am dealing with...I feel anxious and overwhelmed...
