Grace and Love
Ok..I am going to share something I did not intend on sharing with you....but it ties into what I said yesterday about the Room of Grace...
One of the books that a friend gave me to read, I think I told you the title..part of which is hard for me..but the title is "Secret Survivors"..if you dont know the book...it deals with the type of abuse relating to my past.., anyway..in part of one of the chapters it talks about some of the emotional effects left behind as a consequence. The book quotes "Children should be able to expect to be loved. Period. They are entitled to be loved without having everything taken from them-without having anything taken from them. They deserve to learn that it is safe to be dependent. And they should experience having their needs met without tradeoffs or paybacks.".. yesterday when I read in the Grace chapter .." Humility requires trust. Humility believes that what God and others have to to teach me is worthy of my dependent trust .." honestly..I had trouble with this..I am realizing that I have a definite problem with trust..hard to admit..but I do.... then this morning I read in the next chapter in TrueFaced.. Ch 7..I had not read that chapter until this morning...it talks about Love...Love being the first gift of grace.. and the tag saying " Take it , apply it, and trust me to make it real." For the past while..since my letter to you about how God showed me His awesome love and let me experience it..I could not figure out what it was all about...until now...I am just completely overwhelmed..It is almost scary...because God knows me...and loves me...remember this chorus from that song..
To hear with my heart
To see with my soul
To be guided by a hand I cannot hold
To trust in a way what I cannot see
That's what faith must be.
This must be what you mean when you say.."When He lifts you up..."..
