Putting Feelings into Words
I came across this in my other book today...it allows me to express what I have been feeling...into words I have not been able to find....into a reality that I face..
"Incest ( i hate that word) sacrifices trust. The incest victim finds no consistency, only broken promises. The implied promise of the caretaker is " I will take care of you"..but the caretaker, who is a molester, abrogates this responsibility,...The person who she feels should rescue her ( usually her mother) is, in her eyes, also doing so ( as well she might be, although perhaps for real reasons which the child cannot understand). The child learns not to depend on anything that seems to meet her needs. She is reluctant to let down her guard to begin with , for behind acts of caring lie monsters with big claws and razor teeth and mouths that suck her dry. Acts of kindness scare her."...when i read this it put clarity to alot of things I have been feeling lately, especially towards you and [my counselor] and to some degree....God...