Some Clarity for You
Let me share something that might help explain the last statement i made to you...I know I dont need to explain....but I will
needing..
Secret Survivors..( I found this last night...however, I could not figure out why I felt such a "need" to do everything on my own..not to ever need anyone else for anything..did you ever share this..i have a feeling you did.. not the abuse but the need thing..)
"Sexual abuse is confusing. Because it is misabled love, because it is what results when love is sought, or because it is connected to other experiences that are wanted, sexual abuse is not purely a bad experience; it is mixed. The victim believes she must have sought it because she "went back for more". She concludes that the only way to protect herself is to stop asking, stop needing, stop expecting. The the survivor learns that needing makes her bad."
It is not a personal thing when I say I hate needing.....